Well. Benny had a good run. He was two weeks short of his 18th birthday. He passed last night. It was late. Past midnight. His breathing was labored. My wife laid down with him. Fell asleep and woke up this morning with him laying next to her. We're glad he didn't suffer for a long time. It hurts to lose the little guy. But he had a good life. Run free with Guapo and Roadie.
Maybe this can provide a slight bit of comfort for you both.
Earlier this week I read an article written by a long time veterinarian. It was titled something like... What Is The One Thing You Would Like To Share With People About Their Dogs That Most People Don't Know. He clearly had a better title than that, but that was the message.
Remember, this guy has been a veterinarian for a very long time. He wanted to share that the one thing that he knows that dogs want almost more than anything when they know that their time is ending... is to have their loved ones near and close to them at the end. He shared this because of the countless experiences he's had when he's had to put dogs "to sleep".
He's picked up on it because of the extreme differences he's personally seen when he's performed the procedure when the dog's owner(s) is physically in the room with them compared to when they are not. He went on and on about it and explained it in ways that actually seemed profound to me. It wasn't just obvious bs, and I thought that was all it was going to be. It was much more than what we would all expect.
Many people decide not to be in the room with their dogs at that time for obvious reasons. Most people, including myself, would assume that our dog wouldn't truly know what was going on anyway. Well, after reading it... I am now 100% convinced otherwise. A real eye opener for me.
So the fact that your pup was with you guys at that time was more meaningful to him than you can imagine according to this doctor. And I definitely believe he's correct. Having him there with you was the finest gift you could have ever given to him apparently.
When the time comes for my pup someday... I now feel like it would be a crime for me not to be in the room with him. I never thought that until I read this doctor's article.