There really isn't any such thing as a
Rams bandwagon anymore. lol. That thing dumped all of its passengers in 2007. It's not about jumping on or off
that jalopy. I'm just off the message board circuit until such a time that the team is doing much better, and then maybe I'll jump back on if or when that time comes. Or not. I'm putting way too much of my time into this thing, and it's just not paying the kinds of dividends I want (though I am stupid with fat stacks of ROD cash). And there are too many ways to experience joy without introducing negativity into the equation. So I think ima just do that. The wife will dig it too, but she'll have to sacrifice 3 hours every Sunday, because ... RAMS.
This is just my hang-up, not anyone else's. I get it. We're not winning and it's all (insert whoever)'s fault. And I understand the soon to follow retort of, "What's there to be happy about? Should we all sit around and sing Kumbaya together? We're 3-5!" No, you shouldn't. You should be able to express your frustrations freely without having me jump in and try to teach you about life or any number of things I do that push the boundaries. I just wanna have fun (please, no Cyndi Lauper references), I wanna be happy, and I don't wanna fight with anyone anymore. In an epiphany of sorts, I've realized my struggle stems from continuously trying to make people see things through my lens, and that's not only selfish, but also presumptuous. And by pushing that on you, constantly, and without invite, it's making me become the guy I don't wanna be when you push back. Anyway. I've apologized to a couple of you personally already, but I'll extend that out to whomever else I might have offended recently as well. I'm sorry that I insinuated your feelings were wrong or that you're not doing this whole fandom thing the right way. You're grown men with your own personalities and coping mechanisms, and I should have respected that instead of railing on you for it.
But yeah. I'm not gonna rage-quit on ya like most people do when they've reached their limit. Just gonna fly solo for a while. It's the only fair thing to do for you ... and for me. But you know me. I can't leave without one final act of defiance. lol. So I'm gonna leave you with this quote from one of my favorite authors, Thich Nhat Hanh, with the hope that it resonates even a little.
“Hope is important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. If we believe that tomorrow will be better, we can bear a hardship today.” . Now be good to the board, and to your buds. The dudes who run it now try really hard to set this place apart. Help them realize that goal, yeah? Thanks.
Paulie
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if you wanna be pen pals. :shades: