As a great LA underground hip hop head xololanxinxo says in his song "Drowning" - "I was sinking on the verge of drowning, in too deep with my surroundings"
Wake the fuck up, Johnny. You're pissing away a dream that so many others would love to have/would take advantage of.
But it probably doesn't matter now, he looks to be done. So glad we didn't get baited into his bullshit.